To all the new moms, and moms to be-its okay. You don't have to have it all together. You are a GOOD mom, and God chose YOU to be your baby's mom. You are the mama he needs, and even when you feel like you have no idea what you're doing-you are doing a good job. Your baby is going to grow up knowing how loved he is, and that is the best gift you can give to him.
Sheesh. Am I the only one who sometimes needs to tell myself that over and over again before I believe it?! Because I do-often. But its okay to have doubts, its okay to worry, its okay to wonder what the heck you're doing. As a new mom, there is so much to figure out, so many new normals to get used to, and a new little person with his own likes and dislikes that you are trying to take care of.
As a new mom, remember that it is okay:
...To let the dishes stay in the sink and the laundry sit in the basket unfolded and take a nap.
...To ask for help.
...To get back in bed with your baby and watch Greys Anatomy on Netflix when your baby won't let you put him down.
...To admit that being a mom is really hard sometimes.
...To leave the baby with Grandma and Grandpa and go on a date with your baby daddy.
...To ask for help.
...To stop apologizing when people stop by your house and its a mess.
...To choose to feed your baby however works best for you and your family.
...To chose eating lunch over showering when you only have enough time before your baby wakes up for one.
...To have different opinions on motherhood and things like vaccines, breastfeeding, sleep training, etc. than your mommy friends-agree to disagree!
...To have your pediatricians phone number memorized because you call them so frequently when you're worried about your baby.
...Not have dinner on the table every night when your husband gets home.
...To still have 15 pounds of baby weight to lose at 6 weeks postpartum...or 6 months postpartum. Whatever! Your body did something incredible and gave life to another human-own it.
Baby P was officially one month old on Friday. Last week I packed up almost all of his newborn sleepers and cried while I was doing it. He is a little small for the 0-3 month stuff but he definitely has outgrown the NB clothes. We're finishing up the last box of newborn diapers too, and we've been pushing it with those for at least a week.
This last month feels like it went by so fast-I blinked and now my baby is one month old. What a life changing month it has been. Porter has been eating like a champ and growing and gaining weight really well. We went to the doctor last week and he was up to 9 pounds, 2 ounces, up from his birthweight of 7 pounds, 9 ounces! His little thighs are chunking up nicely too and his belly is really filling out. Chunky baby thighs, is there anything better?
Porter is sleeping well at night for me, he takes his last late night feeding at ten, and then eats again usually around two and six ish. He usually will let us go back to sleep until nine or ten, especially if I bring him into bed with me. Some mornings I try and wake up at a decent time but other mornings I go back to sleep with a happy heart. Porter usually sleeps in his own bed which right now is the Rock n Play or but sometimes he ends up in our bed when he's really fighting sleep or I just want some extra baby snuggles.
Porter is a really alert baby who does not just fall asleep anytime, anywhere like I thought all newborns do. Surpirse! Getting him down for a nap sometimes feels like I am going in for battle. He fights his sleep and needs to be swaddled and rocked and shushed and swayed (while standing) to get him to sleep during the day. He loves his swing and his mamaroo but never falls asleep in there if I put him in awake. He loves to be snuggled up close when he sleeps, but we're working on him sleeping in his bed. Its crazy to me that he sleeps better at night than during the day, but I'll take it!
He recently was diagnosed with Silent Reflux where he has acid reflux but doesn't actually spit up that often-he usually swallows it which is so sad to me and he cries and cries inconsolably about an hour after he eats, which happens to be about the time I am trying to get him down for a nap. He was just put on an antacid so we're praying that helps him feel better. Its heartbreaking to see him in pain and not be able to do anything for him!
Porter is nursing like a champ and he also takes a bottle of pumped milk a few times a week. Sometimes Daddy gives him his late night feed since he's hard to wake up for it and the bottle is way less work than nursing for him, and he also has been to Grandma's while mom & dad went on a date and took a bottle from Grandma too. He sleeps swaddled for every nap and at night, but always, always manages to break at least one arm out. We love the Ollie Swaddle and it was worth every pretty penny I spent on it.
We have been getting out of the house at least a few times a week otherwise I go a bit stir crazy. We've gone to play dates with the moms from church, to doctor appointments and to church, grocery shopping and baby clothes shopping. We've also had visitors 3-4 nights a week which has been amazing because they are all blessing us with meals and loving on baby P. Now we're back on our own as far as meals go and I am wondering how I am going to fit in prepping dinner in my day when sometimes I can't fit a shower in for a couple days and often I eat lunch at 3 PM if I eat at all!
I can't believe my baby is one month old-oh these last few weeks have been full of the highest highs and even some really dark, sleep deprived, overwhelmed moments as well. But I wouldn't trade them for the world. He really has made my heart grow at least 10x the size it was, and I have experienced such true, unconditional love for this baby, its incredible. Somedays I can't bear to set him down because he's just growing so fast and I am afraid I'm going to miss something. I am so so thankful to be Porter's mom, to have such a supportive and involved husband, and for our community of friends and family who have been loving and encouraging us every step of the way. Porter is already so loved and I look forward to watching him grow and learn and change.