When I first read the topic for today's Community Brew post, I admit I quickly dismissed the idea of writing about the topic. The topic is marriage, and specifically, the question was asked "How has your "life stage" helped you grow in your relationship with Jesus?" I read this on a morning I was feeling frustrated. I was feeling frustrated for myself and my sinful heart, feeling like a failure at nailing that whole "gentle and quiet spirit thing, and feeling prideful about my most recent argument with my husband.
I didn't want to show up to this space and write about marriage when I felt like I just not doing a good job at this whole wife thing. Those little shaming voices creeped in my head telling me I had no business writing about something I just wasn't good at.But, as I thought about it the rest of the day, I realized that what I was experiencing was all the more reason I should write. I realized that what I was struggling with, my pride and selfishness and insecurity, they are al areas that God is actively working on in my heart. I was reminded that I should be writing about this stuff-the nitty, gritty, real life lessons I'm learning, even when its hard.
Because God is actively pruning away the areas of my heart that are full of weeds so that I can bear fruit, and I want to bring these areas into the light so we all can encourage one another if its something that maybe God is working on your heart in too. What marriage has taught me more than anything over the past 10 months is how much I need Jesus. I've never been more aware of my sinfulness, but I've never been more grateful for the grace of God, and the grace of my husband.
Marriage has taught me a lot-but lately, I've been reminded how incredibly powerful the words "I'm sorry," and "I forgive you" truly are. I've learned (but not yet mastered) the true importance of repentance, and grace even when its undeserved and plain hard to do. I've come before God on my knees, thankful that He is so quick to welcome me back to His loving arms, no matter how far I've fallen or how many times I've failed Him.
If we can come before our husband, and God and repent our sinful words, thoughts, and actions, not only does it bring healing into our marriage, but also our own hearts. Its not an easy thing for me to do, to humble myself and confess that I was wrong in the way I spoke to my husband, or ask for forgiveness for my hurtful words, but when I do God works in my marriage and my heart. It gives God room to prune away the dead leaves and vines that are not bearing fruit, so then in turn, we can bear fruit in our own lives and in our marriage.
I recently came across this infographic about weddings, marriages, and honeymoons and its got me thinking about all that time that I (and countless other brides) invested into wedding planning, planning the perfect day and perfect dress and romantic honeymoon. And I am so glad for the gift of marriage, for being able to celebrate with friends and family, for the luxourius honeymoon and gorgeous flowers. But more than that, I'm thankful for a partner to do life with. A husband who will always stand hand in hand with me, through the moments of joy and moments of hurt. A husband who at the end of the day, will love me through my darkest days, my crankiest hours and my worst attitudes.
Infographic Presented By Country Club Receptions