Thursday, June 12, 2014

Trusting In the Midst of Unknowns

"I will look back, and see that you are faithful. I look ahead, believing you are able." 
-I Will Look Up, Elevation Worship

This song has absolutely been on repeat in my house/car/office lately. Especially that specific line-I've been repeating it over and over and over. For me, anything that is unknown is synonymous with anxiety. I really struggle not knowing what lies ahead. I operate best knowing whats coming, having a very detailed and carefully organized plan, and knowing all the scenarios that might happen. But its become very clear to me over the past few years that God doesn't always give us the big picture or detailed plans about what is in store. Instead, he often asks us to just trust Him, and be obedient to his voice even if we aren't sure what will happen as a result. 

For instance, we believe He has called Ronnie to attend college this fall and do it debt free. But, the cost of that as you can imagine is extremely high, and I've spent countless nights lying awake wondering where the money will come from. Although we haven't woken up to a check in our mailbox for the full cost of Ronnie's school, we have been blessed little by little to provide for the first few months of Ronnie's school payments. We have the first couple of months taken care of because of some unexpected blessings financially, but I still wonder where our other payments are going to come from. 

Would I rather just KNOW where the money is going to come from EVERY month? Yes! I would, that would give me peace of mind. But God wants us to just trust Him with this, and every other area of our lives. God wants me to completely rely on Him, and trust in His goodness and provision. He is reminding me that my peace comes from HIM alone, not from material or financial things. I believe that is why sometimes, we don't always get to know what lies ahead for us. If we always knew the plan and how the chips would fall, I might not rely on faith alone.  God uses every circumstance to bring us closer to Him. Sometimes, we have to take that first step without being able to see the entire staircase. And thats where our faith is tested, but grown as well. I know in my heart God will provide for our family to do what He's called us-and even if we can't see a way, we can rest knowing that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. His plans have always been 100% better than anything I've planned for myself. 

What are you struggling to trust God with lately?


Today, I have a special announcement- one of my very best blogging friends Rachel and I have teamed up to host a really fun link-up! We want to share with you what a day in our lives looks like-and we want you to join us! Next Thursday, June 19th, we will be sharing moments from our days with you in a blog post. We want to show you what a typical morning looks like for us, show you our favorite spot for a lunch break, share with you what we might be wearing that day or what we're up too after work. We might  let you into our favorite place in our home and share moments that made us smile. We want to let you into our lives a little more, and we want you to play along too!

So, before next Thursday, keep your phone or camera handy and snap pictures throughout the day! Pictures of anything you want to share with us what a day in YOUR life looks like. Then, get ready to link up your "Day in the Life" post on Thursday the 19th so we can all see what a typical day looks like for each other. We can't wait to get to know you a little more, and to share a real life look into our lives as well!

PS: We may be giving away a sweet prize pack next Thursday as well, so make sure you stop by and link-up a day in YOUR life!

Happy Is A Choice


  1. Thank you for this post. I really needed it. I am like you - I like to know what is coming, what to expect, and to have everything all planned out. I graduated from college in May and have been applying teaching jobs. I have had several interviews but each one has resulted in me not getting the job. I've been very discouraged lately as I feel like I am back at square one. It's hard waiting for God's timing. The words from that song (I will look back and see that you are faithful, I will look ahead believing you are able) is exactly what I need. Thank you for sharing your heart with us!

  2. I love this! I find it so easy to look back and say wow, God really had my back and was so faithful there, but then not trust him to keep doing it as I move forward. Prayers for you and Ronnie as you prepare for the next season!

    Also this linkup sounds like so much fun.

  3. OOOH girl! Yes this is something that has been very much on my mind lately too. I've been struggling with trusting his timing. I know it's awful, and I know He's got this, but I can't help but wonder about the future.

  4. You are such a blessing to me! Thank you for opening up and sharing this with necessary! I wish it was as easy to trust in the Lord as it is to talk about it...I'd have it down pat! Keep leaning on Him, sister. He's got you covered, even when it's scary. Actually, especially when it's scary. Can't wait to see how God works in both of your lives!

  5. Thanks for sharing this post! I'm struggling with the same thing right now. I want to put 100% of my faith and trust in God, but I let my own planning and control get in the way.

  6. You are a bright spot in a very dreary day my friend. Thank you for this post and for being you. <3

  7. I'm a planner by nature and I hate the unknown, but like you said, God doesn't always give us the bigger picture. I struggled with that a lot at one point in my life, but I finally figured out that God won't give me more than I can handle, and He has my best interest at heart. It took a lot for me to give up that "control" over my life, but once I did, my stress level went down quite a bit. One of my favorite verses is Phillipians 4:6 (Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.) I can't wait to see how God works in y'all's life. Saying a little prayer for you both as you go through this unknown.

  8. This is always so hard. We want answers and we want them now. I have struggled with this but over time come to notice that God's timing is perfect timing and for that I trust in Him.

  9. I am the exact same way! Our lease ends in July, and for where I want to live, nothing was opening up, and it seemed like everything WASN'T the viable option. I kept trusting that the closed doors had a purpose, but I was anxiety ridden over "where is my OPEN DOOR?!" and panicking over all the logistics (putting kid into school last minute, getting my less than stellar credit approved). And over the weekend, out of nowhere, with perfect timing (God's timing duh) my friends parents purchased a townhome to rent, and immediately reached out to me as their top choice for tenant. Including a 'special rate' rent that I know doesn't offer them any additional income on their property. I still feel like it's too good to be true, but it couldn't have turned out more perfectly. Sometimes waiting for that door is terrifying, but this blog post reminds me so much that... it will come. Faith will bring what we need, even if it's not how we want to see it, or as quickly, or from the door we're staring at waiting on. Thank you for writing this!

  10. My husband is considering returning to school and it's such a hard decision because we simply cannot take on any more debt. It is inspiring to read your thoughts because it would be easier if God would just mail a check or give him a job offer. But when prayers are answered, it is such a blessing that I would not have known if I had not had to wait.
    I'm really excited for the link up, too!

  11. Thank you so much for this post today. My anxiety has been out of control lately with all the changes happening and things that are out of my control. I know that everything is in God's hands and in His control, but I still struggle with not knowing.

    1. Also, I think I've listened to that song about 10 times today. Thank you for that as well :)

  12. You seem to keep posting just what I need to read. I have told my husband this same thing SO many times in the last month, "I wish God would just tell us what the plan is." I am working so hard on renewing my trust and fully allowing myself to rely on God. The money will work itself out if it is God's plan. My husband was out of the blue presented with a new job opportunity today.. now is this what God wants him to do? What is the best decision for our family? Praying constantly :) I'll be praying for you two as well!

  13. Thank you for this post. It was just what I needed. I am really struggling with financial things too. I just got my first bill for my student loan payment and was just shocked. I know God will provide but I have spent so many hours wondering what I need to do to make this easier on us. I also feel burdened because my husband doesn't have college debt and I brought this into our marriage. I know that guilt is wrong, but it's hard not to feel bad for making someone else help pay your debt..

  14. Yes, God is so faithful! My husband is graduating from Seminary in December and, at the very beginning, we knew we were called to complete it debt-free. As of now, we have not had to take out any loans (and are not planning on having to take out loans) Some months we do the math and realize that there's no logical reason we were able to pay for school and live life at the same time with the money we make but we've never gone without. God is so good!

  15. The linkup is such a good idea!
    I agree... trusting God is TOUGH. Oh, it really is. But every time we trust Him, the rewards we reap show how great He is!