"I will look back, and see that you are faithful. I look ahead, believing you are able."
-I Will Look Up, Elevation Worship
This song has absolutely been on repeat in my house/car/office lately. Especially that specific line-I've been repeating it over and over and over. For me, anything that is unknown is synonymous with anxiety. I really struggle not knowing what lies ahead. I operate best knowing whats coming, having a very detailed and carefully organized plan, and knowing all the scenarios that might happen. But its become very clear to me over the past few years that God doesn't always give us the big picture or detailed plans about what is in store. Instead, he often asks us to just trust Him, and be obedient to his voice even if we aren't sure what will happen as a result.
For instance, we believe He has called Ronnie to attend college this fall and do it debt free. But, the cost of that as you can imagine is extremely high, and I've spent countless nights lying awake wondering where the money will come from. Although we haven't woken up to a check in our mailbox for the full cost of Ronnie's school, we have been blessed little by little to provide for the first few months of Ronnie's school payments. We have the first couple of months taken care of because of some unexpected blessings financially, but I still wonder where our other payments are going to come from.
Would I rather just KNOW where the money is going to come from EVERY month? Yes! I would, that would give me peace of mind. But God wants us to just trust Him with this, and every other area of our lives. God wants me to completely rely on Him, and trust in His goodness and provision. He is reminding me that my peace comes from HIM alone, not from material or financial things. I believe that is why sometimes, we don't always get to know what lies ahead for us. If we always knew the plan and how the chips would fall, I might not rely on faith alone. God uses every circumstance to bring us closer to Him. Sometimes, we have to take that first step without being able to see the entire staircase. And thats where our faith is tested, but grown as well. I know in my heart God will provide for our family to do what He's called us-and even if we can't see a way, we can rest knowing that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. His plans have always been 100% better than anything I've planned for myself.
What are you struggling to trust God with lately?
PS: AN ANNOUNCEMENT
So, before next Thursday, keep your phone or camera handy and snap pictures throughout the day! Pictures of anything you want to share with us what a day in YOUR life looks like. Then, get ready to link up your "Day in the Life" post on Thursday the 19th so we can all see what a typical day looks like for each other. We can't wait to get to know you a little more, and to share a real life look into our lives as well!
PS: We may be giving away a sweet prize pack next Thursday as well, so make sure you stop by and link-up a day in YOUR life!