One of my intentions of this space is to write when I have words to say. Somewhere along the way, I think a lot of us bloggers/writers get tripped up with some burden of having to have a post up every day. It becomes something we have to do, an obligation, a job. And though there is something to be said for consistency, for writing even when you don't feel like it, I have been pondering the difference between writing through a writers block and writing when you just don't have anything to say.
Because sometimes, I don't have any words to say. Sometimes, they're just not there for one reason or another. But other times, I have so many thoughts and feelings that only writing will help me process and find the words. There is a difference though, isn't there? The difference is throwing together a quick post for the sake of having a blog post because you feel obligated to, and writing all your thoughts and feelings out into this blank screen and being surprised at where those words came from. Or maybe thats me.
But my intention for this space is to write when I have words. I desire for my words to be intentional, not thrown together. To bring out some emotion in those that read, to give that "Me too" opportunity to one of you experiencing something you feel alone in. To make you laugh or maybe make you cry, to inspire you or just maybe you'll feel like you know me a little bit better. That's the purpose of this place, at least according to me.
I desire to be consistent but I also know the reality of my schedule, and the way my heart processes life. Sometimes, writing is all that helps and others, I need sort out all my feelings and thoughts internally before I can publicly share them. The best part of this blog to me, besides the relationships I've formed, is it gives me a new perspective about each experience I face day to day. It reminds me to stop, to appreciate the moments, to reflect on what works in my life, and what doesn't work so great. It pushes me to step out of my comfort zone in order to have something to share with all of you. But, it does at time feel like a burden, and I don't want it to become something I have to do.
My schedule this month has two really big events that I am preparing for currently: A half marathon on May 17th and my PHR certification test on May 31. Both of these things are not only SUPER important to me, but also come packaged with a nice big anxiety bow on top. The anxiety is something that I am working on letting go of, knowing that my performance on both events, the race and the test do not determine my identity or my worth.
So thats where we're at-I am going to make a valiant effort to write here when I have words to say. And even to push myself to find words to say when I don't feel like I have any. But, to give myself grace because sometimes, we don't have any words and thats okay too. I'm going to give myself a pass on writing a blog post when my schedule gets crazy or I just want to veg out on the couch in front of netflix with my husband. And I'm going to be okay with that. I'm letting go of the pressure, and going to write when I have words. Because its as simple as that.
What do you think is more important to you, in your writing and blogging? Being consistent and pushing yourself to find the words, or being okay with the silence and writing when you have something to say? I don't think there is a right or wrong-writing and blogging is personal and the beauty of it is we get to do what we want with our own space on the interwebz. I'd just love to hear your thoughts!