But, I am trying to have a less dependent relationship with you. Last weekend, I watched this video, and then I went to church and heard a sermon on being "Stuck". And I realized, I was stuck in a few things that were not honoring to God and were not helping me on this journey I have been on to be content. Its painful to admit, but I really do think I have (had?) an addiction to social media.
I love social media as much as the next person, and I don't think there is anything wrong with it. But personally, checking all three forms of social media, putting my phone down for five minutes and checking it again just wasn't okay with me. Seeing happy news about someone I followed and feeling bad because I didn't have that thing (that job, that house, that car, that body) wasn't okay. Being envious and wanting more, more, more was watering a nasty seed of discontentment in my life that I wanted to yank at the roots.
So, I deleted the social media apps on my phone. And while I was thinking about this, I gave my self a long list of reasons why I shouldn't. Such as how I needed to promote my blog posts, give my sponsors their shootouts, and interact with my friends and blog readers. But then I realized, this can all be done on a computer, I can schedule tweets in the evenings, I can still be active on social media without it consuming every hour of my day.
I decided I needed a break. I needed to stop obsessively checking what everyone else was doing, and engage in my own life. I needed to take pictures for the sake of capturing my own memories that I was okay with not sharing for the world to see what I was doing. I needed to put boundaries on the time I spent on social media and stop let it distract me from what I get paid to do every day, and thats work at my job. I needed to lay in bed at night and talk to my husband instead of scroll instagram. I needed to wake up in the morning and spend the first 15 minutes of my day reading my Bible instead of scrolling through each social media app on my phone.
I don't know how long I will not have the apps on my phone-maybe just the month of May, or maybe longer. I do have to say, if one of them gets brought back soonest its Instagram because I do love sharing moments of my life, and seeing moments of your lives too. But, I definitely needed a detox from being so attached to my phone. I'm still on social media, but not on my iPhone. Crazy, right? I am learning what else to do with my hands now-like read. And work uninterrupted for more than a 10 minute time frame. I haven't given it up, but I am intentionally trying to scale back my usage and be more present in life's everyday, small moments.
Mrs. Laura Beth is a country girl who lives on a farm with cows right in her backyard, but is gorgeous and classy and charming as they come. She is such a sweet hearted soul who is pretty good with a camera, and made me laugh when she taught some young girls about photography who were wondering, "How did you have to post to instagram if you had to wait for your pictures?" . So appropriate for today's post, right? She also recently posted a Mother's Day Gift Guide that if you're like me, might come in handy two day's before Mother's Day! Laura enjoys the good life-reading a good book with a glass of wine in hand, which is probably my favorite way to spend an afternoon. Go check out this girl, and tell me you don't want to go on a coffee date with her. I do!