Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Overcoming A Silent Disease

In October 2012, I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis, a chronic autoimmune diseases that caused my immune system to attack my joints. I spent months in so much pain I couldn't wash my own hair or turn my door knob to get into my apartment. I remember vividly sitting in the doctors office listening to my doctor gently break the news that I might not ever run again.

Its been quite the journey, but I wad determined to run again. In the spring of 2013, I tried every week to run. Somedays, I barely took 10 steps before I had to walk because I was in so much pain. But slowly, I was able to run farther and farther. I cried the day I ran a mile because I was so afraid I'd never get to do it again.

Saturday I ran a half-marathon. I overcame the odds and did what many believed I could not. I pushed through pain and fatigue week after week to finally say I did it.

Its impossible for me to go on a run and not feel grateful that I have the ability to run. I am also so thankful for my wonderful friend and running buddy, Molly, who reminded me what I was fighting for each week during our brutal long runs. She pushed me, encouraged me, kept me company and didn't ever let me just give up.


I am so proud to say I ran a half marathon. It was hard-especially the last four miles. I wondered if I'd ever finish. But I did. I am not fast, and might never be as fast as I was before I got sick, but I am so proud to say that I have RA, but I am still a runner.


Hope is never lost, we are never too far gone for Jesus to restore us. His ways are far better than my own, and He is always good. This trial in my life threatened to stop me in my tracks, to leave me angry and hopeless and restrict the life I lead. But instead, its made me more thankful of all the ways I've experienced healing. Its made me appreciate the body I have and the things it can do. Its made me realize that my identity is not here in anything in this world, but soley in Christ.


We did it. And I'm not stopping here. I have goals and plans and am going to continue to fight against my RA by staying active and healthy. I plan to keep running and hopefully beat my half marathon time in the next year! 

20 comments:

  1. Congratulations.
    What a battle you have had to encounter.
    I hope that things get better though you are right it is always there.
    I have fibromyalgia and a few other health issues. I know how it is to want to get past it and get on with things in life. There are days that are good and bad.
    I have a sister who ran a marathon barely two yrs after a bone marrow transplant for stage for non-hodgkins.
    I hope that you will continue to have good days and that there is more running in your life.

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  2. How amazing are you?? Did you know God has given you this "hurdle" in your life to find out who you truly are and how far you can push yourself to succeed. What an AMAZING accomplishment that you will never forget!

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  3. LOVE. Last night my Mom sent me a picture of her shots because she finally got some in after her doctor made her go off them last year. She said “I’ve never been so excited to inflict pain on myself!” Ha! I truly am blown away by the attitude I see in her, and in you. The fact that this disease is so “silent” makes it so hard for people to understand. You guys are so brave and you are some of the strongest people I know. I feel honored to know people who are battling and WINNING against RA. What a testimony of your attitude and perseverance. So proud of you!! Praying one day we can say there is a CURE for RA!

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  4. So beautifully written and such an inspiring story! Here's to more running and more fighting and more winning against RA!

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  5. Congratulations girl! So amazing and so inspirational that you didn't let the RA stop you from doing what you love!

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  6. You go girl! This is so awesome! Praise God :)

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  7. This makes me cry! I am so proud of you! I just wish I could hug you and congratulate you in person, sweet friend! See this right here makes me a little angry at myself for those days when I'm just "too lazy" to go workout...because I have perfect ability to do it, I just choose not to. Some people aren't so lucky...and then reality hits me and makes me grateful for the two working legs I have. You are a blessing to me!

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  8. This is beautiful!! you are a warrior! congrats and keep fighting on!

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  9. This is so great!! I feel so much admiration and respect for you for doing something so incredibly difficult and pursuing it all the way. I forget that I'm lucky to have health, and don't prioritize it as I should, but you are a source of inspiration!

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  10. Congratulations! That is such an amazing obstacle you overcame, and what a sweet friend you have.

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  11. Every post about this half marathon makes me so happy :-)

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  12. LOVE this! Congrats girl! We are all so proud of you! I am so impressed by your dedication and your diligence!

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  13. This is so inspiring! What an amazing story and testimony. Congrats!

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  14. Congratulations girl, that is awesome.. wow :)

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  15. I am so so glad I found your blog! I was recently diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis and right now it is seriously kicking my butt, I am so happy for you and this encourages me to push forward no matter what!

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  16. I think it is so awesome and beautiful that you are able to do what they said you couldn't. Get it, girl!

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  17. Hi there! New to the blog and so happy I came across it and this post! I was recently diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, as well, and it too shook me to the core. I have been so blessed by your post and share in the same belief that God is in control. Since my diagnosis, my relationship with Him has grown so much (sad it took this for that to happen) and my faith in His power to heal. Seeing how you did not let your diagnosis stop you from accomplishing goals and living life is so inspirational. XO

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