Friday, May 16, 2014

A Coffee Date


There's something about sitting with your legs curled up under you, a cup of coffee in hand while someone sits across from you, asking you how you're really doing and really caring about the answer. There's something about coffee dates that brings courage to be real with the person across from you that I personally am hard pressed to find elsewhere. Coffee dates are comfortable, they're inviting, and they feel like a safe place.

Today, I'm participating in Rachel's from Oh Simple Thoughts coffee date linkup. If I had my way,  we would really be sitting across a small table in a coffee shop from one another, talking about life and marriage and ministry and God's goodness, but as goes with blog friends, they're just simply too far away.

Today, if you asked me how I was really doing, I would tell you I feel heavy. I feel like I am carrying so many burdens, fears and anxieties around that I just can't seem to sit down. I cried on the way home from work today, asking God when we could just catch a break. And immediately after that, I felt guilt and even shame that wants to ttell me that its wrong for me to complain about circumstances in my life when really, we are beyond blessed. Our life is not one that is hard, but I realized I don't like to be uncomfortable. But I think its important to note that God is not offended by my complaints, my questions, or my requests. He longs for us to pour our hearts out to Him, even when our hearts need His gentle pruning.

I see the areas of my heart that God is so lovingly pruning. I've been getting a lesson in patience, about surrendering my own desires, and about releasing that tight death grip of control and truly trusting God with our future. God is so patient with me, gently whispering to my heart that He will take care of me, that His love covers me and is enough, that He is in control so I don't have to fight so hard to try to be in control. I hear his call to set down my burdens in His loving hands because He is trustworthy. I hear His reminders to stay close to his loving voice, to direct every thought to Him, to just take one step, and then another after another, to walk the road He has carved for me.

Friends, whatever burden you might be trying to carry on your own, you can set it down. I know how hard this is, especially if you are like me and have spent years trying to prove to yourself that you have it all together, that if you just worked harder, you'd finally get it. Today, I am setting down the things that weigh on me in the loving hands of our father who wants to carry them for us. He is faithful, even when I am faithless.



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17 comments:

  1. Oh, sweet friend. How I love your heart. I know that feeling all too well--when I let anxiety creep in and take over. That's Satan taking a hold of my life. The Lord knows you, Brittany...He knows your every want and need. He's using this time to grow you and help you learn...keep your chin up, because this will pass. Lay it all down at the foot of the cross, sister. You are precious!

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  2. I loved every word of this post and I can so identify with you! I've been feeling exactly the same - just heavy. I read a quote yesterday that just just kind of made me take a deep breath in and remember that God is completely and lovingly in control. It said "Forgive me for picking up what I have already laid down at Your feet."

    Thanks for sharing your heart with us again and again, you'll never know just how much I love these posts of yours!

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  3. Oh Brittany, thank you! Thanks for being so open. I can so so so totally relate to that desire to hold so tightly to control. It is what I chase after a lot of times, and when I am honest with myself I am happiest when I am in control. Such a hard thing to admit. Praise the Lord that he does so lovingly prune us as you said. He is such a gracious father, that longs for us to love him more! So happy to have coffee with you this morning! Thank you for linking up with us! It has been such a great and deep joy to get to know you this past month through your blog! Jesus is so evident in you!! Much love!

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  4. thank you for opening up! i love this coffee date idea & it's so encouraging to read how other bloggers are going through similar things as me! i have felt so overwhelmed lately and just like you described just heavy and burdened. but you are so right that God invites us to pour our hearts out to Him! and i think it's so important and healthy to do on a regular basis! it is so amazing that we can lay our burdens down and He will carry them! we serve a great God! :)

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  5. This post strikes a chord in my own heart. Yes we may not have the most difficult lives, but they are not perfect either and I've been struggling to be content in what the Lord has already blessed me with. I give up all my worries, anxiety and stresses to him in the hope that he can help me grow through them and become stronger (:

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  6. Stopping by from Oh Simple thoughts link -up. I can totally relate to what you're saying. I'm getting married in September, which is so exciting; but there has been a ton of changes in my family's lives in the past year and it has been so easy to let bitterness and fear to take over. I feel like I have a lot of burdens to carry. Just recently God has really been working on my heart and lifting it from where it has been. Thank you for your hear and your willingness to share <3

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  7. Oh my stars has this been a struggle with me as well. It is easy to compare yourself to everyone and everything around you and that can definitely steal your joy! Thank you for sharing your heart! Love hearing it! Have a beautiful day girl!

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  8. I've had many heavy days lately too, lovely girl. I love to read your blog and hear how transparent you are with your heart and where you're really at. I hope you find your burdens lightening soon!

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  9. I really relate to this. I have felt heavy this past week as well. I have also caught myself asking God...or begging God just for a break. Lord let the dust settle! Yet, you are right I just have to cast my cares onto Him. Thank you for sharing your heart. I know that is something that is never easy. It inspires me to participate in this link up as well and share my own heart.

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  10. Brittany, I can relate so much. I am praying for you, that you would be able to cast all your anxieties on him. And for all of us, really. Because I feel like it's something we all really struggle with.

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  11. This touched my heart so much! As someone who has just come through a dark tunnel and is finally seeing the light I can so relate to you! It takes two mountains to make a valley and I know that whatever burden you are carrying it is not bigger than our Lord! Thank you for being so raw and open. You blessed me!

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  12. I needed to hear the reminder that God loves to for us to pour out our hearts. I do feel guilty sometimes and needed this reminder! Thank you for pouring out your heart for Jesus.

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  13. "But I think its important to note that God is not offended by my complaints, my questions, or my requests. He longs for us to pour our hearts out to Him, even when our hearts need His gentle pruning."

    I needed that sentence, thank you. Its hard for me to not feel guilted out of praying about frustrations when I lead a blessed life.

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  14. Totally my personality, too. To take it all and try to make it fit what cookie cutter I feel like my life should be. To clean everything up so that God’s pleased. BUT THATS JUST NOT IT. Absolutely learning the same lessons. Continue to wreck us, Jesus.

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  15. I relate to this so much, Brittany! I am such a planner and always want to have my hand in the plans for my life. I have to learn and remind myself every day to lay it all at the feet of Jesus. Praying that you would rest in Christ and lay your burdens and anxieties on Him!

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  16. This is so good and so true. So often I want to carry my burdens instead of surrendering them. What a sweet and gentle reminder you shared with us. Praying for peace to flood you from the top of your head to the bottom of your toes! Be blessed sweet lady! xo C

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  17. Every bit of this. Needed it. I've been holding on to my own selfish desires lately and trying to be in control of all these things I have zero control on and it has left me with a very messy messy anxious heart. I've had to pour it out to the Lord because I can't do that. I can't be that way. Thank you for your honesty.

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