Life lately has been somewhat of a whirlwind for the Rasmussen house. Life suddenly picked up the pace and forced us to move, when I was still stuck in winter mode of cuddling up and turning in for the night at five PM. Spring brings new air, blooming flowers and new life, and it brings a season of busyness. For me, busyness brings exhaustion, both the good kind that allows sleep the second your head hits the pillow with a sense of accomplishment, but it also brings that defeating exhaustion. The kind that you feel in your bones, that is hovering over you as you look around at the laundry piling in the corner or the grass that needs mowed but no one has had a free minute to get to it. Busyness can also bring a sense of guilt, and for me, sometimes I just want to bury my head in the sand and avoid everything on that to do list and just hide, hoping it will go away.
But it doesn’t ever just go away does it? The bills must be paid, Monday always rolls around faster than I’d like, and the calendar fills up with events. And instead of stomp my feet and refuse to enjoy any full day because I’m too “busy” I’ve realized that I don’t have to wish away these days. That this season, though we may be stretched is also a time where we can grow. This week in particular I am going to try to take control of my schedule, instead of letting it control me. This means I hope to have better planned days, utilizing my free time better, and not wasting precious time in the black hole of social media.
I plan on tackling one or two chores after work, like washing the sheets and vacuuming and folding laundry, so it doesn’t all pile up all week and have me ripping my hair out by Thursday. I plan on cooking something nutrious and satisfying right after work (or talking Ronnie into cooking something nutritious...) so its out of the way and the temptation to order pizza when I am starving at 8 PM isn’t too strong to resist. I plan on being productive in the first few hours of my evenings so I can rest well for the rest of the nights, instead of scrambling at 9 PM to get a blog post written and lunch prepared for the next day.
I also am going to stick to my scheduled running schedule for the week-because if last week taught me anything, cutting out the one activity that fills me up and refreshes me is the worst thing possible to do when I am already feeling exhausted and burnt out. Even when busyness tries to get in the way of something you love, I hope you can find a way to move it to the top of your priority list. Because what we do with our time matters. And taking time to rest well, to recharge, to connect with a friend or loved one, to read a book or go for a run, whatever it is that your soul needs, it matters. Its important enough to make time for.