Wednesday, March 26, 2014

If You Came Over for Coffee



If you came over for coffee, we’d settle in and the first thing I’d ask you is how you’re really doing. Oh, I know you want to smile and say fine, maybe tell me that work is busy and life is crazy. But how are you really doing? How is your heart? What are you wrestling with right now? Will you share with me in the comments below? If you don’t feel comfortable, will you e-mail and tell me: how are you doing, really?

 If you came over for coffee, I’d tell you that I have a confession to make. I haven’t opened my bible for over two weeks, and I haven’t had time just pouring out my heart to God either. I feel shame for this, so its not easy for me to admit that I have been choosing sleep, time on the computer, blogging, and Netflix over this time with Jesus I desperately need. Why is it so easy for me to let something so crucial, so vital to my own spiritual and emotional well being slip? Why is it constantly pushed to the bottom of my priority list when I know how despartely my heart and soul needs this time?

 If you came over for coffee I’d tell you that I read something the other day in Beth Moore’s book, Breaking Free and it just hit me straight at my core. It was in a chapter of the book called the "Obstacle of Prayerlessness" and it said : "Without a doubt, avoiding prayer is a sure prescription for anxiety, a certain way to avoid peace. " 

A sure prescription for anxiety. I don't know about you, but I struggle with anxiety on a daily basis without needing a prescription for more. A certain way to avoid peace. I've felt this restlessness in my heart, this doubt creeping in, a fear of the unknown over the past few weeks and couldn't quite put a finger on it. I couldn't quite understand where it was coming from, but I've been trying to do this thing called life on my own, and I haven't been staying in communication with the One who gives me His strength and His peace.

So if you came up for coffee and asked me how I was doing, I'd confess this to you. I'd tell you that this is where I am at right now, and instead of feeling shame and guilt for it, I want you to know that I'm human. I fall short and forget to say my prayers at night and read my daily scripture, but God is relentlessly pursuing my heart, and He's pursuing yours too. It doesn't matter that I haven't met with God for weeks because tonight, when I sign off this computer to sit at His feet with my bible and a cup of tea, He will be waiting for me with open arms and joy as His child turns back to Him.His love is not dependent on our works, and He desperately longs to be our strength, our comfort, our helper, our peace and pour out his love onto us.

So tell me...how are you doing, really?

25 comments:

  1. Loved this post..you have a way of making readers feel so included in your life!

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  2. Beautifully written! You've immediately made me feel important and connected to you. I am experiencing some similar things as you described--not spending one-on-one time with God as much as I should. It's probably even been longer than two weeks that I've really put everything aside and focused on prayer and rest with Him. Thanks for reminding me that I'm not alone. And thanks for reminding me that life without prayer will only cause pain and anxiety. If I sat down with you for coffee, I'd share that. I would also share that I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that I will not have a job after May. Having to teach up until that point is really difficult and I don't exactly like the person I've become because of the situation with my school.

    Thank you for this! I needed to hear these truths!

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  3. Love this! I would probably tell you that even though I quit one job to make things easier for me, I have still let school slide and not made it a priority. In fact nothing important in life has been a priority lately for me. Not God and not school. But that I am determined to get my butt in gear and change this! Such a great post that really got me thinking:)

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  4. I completely agree with that statement about the relationship between prayer and peace. I've experienced that in my own life and seek to make spending time with prayer a priority because I DON'T want to live an anxious life.

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  5. I love this. I have a friend who is so intentional about asking "how are you doing?" or "how was your day?" whenever we chat instead of "what's up" and I appreciate it so much! Whenever I experience times of drifting away from God I get so scared that He won't take me back and I'll never be able to feel comfort in Him again. Of course I'm always wrong and the minute I open my Bible or start doodling in my prayer journal I feel Him closer than ever.

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  6. A sure prescription for anxiety...wow. That is so poignant. If we were having coffee, I would be so thankful for hearing this today. I would tell you that my anxiety about moving to another state, knowing that the chances of us making enough money to do anything beyond feeding our family are slim to none...well, my anxiety about that is through the roof! :) I pray about it all the time, but in honesty, I hardly EVER open my Bible to seek wisdom about it. I am so glad we "had coffee" and you reminded me how important the word really is!

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  7. I needed these words today. Thank you. I'm about to send you an email right now :)

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  8. Love this, Brittany! Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I also haven't opened my Bible in about 2 weeks- last night I cracked it open to work on a She Reads Truth study, it got interrupted. I hope that we can be an encouragement to one another so that we can dive into God's word and soak up all the truth and freedom it brings!

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  9. Amazing.. I've been struggling with this lately. My mind hasn't been able to focus on spending that time and I feel guilty constantly (Which is good- God's still tugging at my heart) but for some reason I just have been to worn out.. which is ridiculous, because spending time with Him is the only way to renew myself. But the part where you said instead of feeling shame and guilt I want you to know I'm human-- Yes. Thank you for that. Blessings!

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  10. This is a really honest and open piece... You have made me think... how do I really feel... not right :-/

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  11. Can I just tell you that you're such a breath of fresh air! Your words are personal and you actually care…we need so many more people in this world like you. Why is it so easy that we can put our materialistic lives in front of our eternal ones? It daily boggles my mind.
    I would love to pick up a new Christian book. Whats your favorite?
    Thankful for you!

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  12. I am a new blogger and I absolutely love your blog! Your posts are so inspiring to read, this one especially. I love that quote from Beth Moore, she is one of my favorite authors. This is something I struggle with daily and it is a fight. Is there anything I can pray for you about?

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  13. IM COMING OVER FOR COFFEE OK? LIKE RIGHT NOW.

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  14. thank you for being so honest and real. setting out time to spend in God's presence isn't always easy to do with a busy schedule, but when i do i feel so refreshed and fulfilled. you encouraged me and reminded me of how incredibly important it is.

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  15. Also, if I came over we'd have the SAME EXACT sweater on because my mom gave it to me for Christmas and it's a staple in my closet! :) Great minds I tell you.

    If I came over for coffee I'd tell you that I'm wrestling with God lately. Because I know that He has things He wants me to do, but I'm confused about HOW. And I like routines and planning. So the HOW is becoming quite the sticking point between Him and I. I'd tell you that He loves you deeply and wholly regardless of how you feel. And I'd remind you that feelings are important, but sometimes they're just wrong. They're wrong when they tell you you're not enough, you're supposed to be more, that He's disappointed. I'd ask for more half and half in my cup and probably end up with jitters from all the caffeine (because I just can't stop when we're having such a great conversation). I hope I'd bring scones, because coffee and scones are like Amber and Brittany. :)

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  16. love this! I felt like I was sitting down with you all comfy. Beautiful words.

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  17. Loved this. Thank you for sharing from your heart. I love that you began by asking "tell me how you REALLY are" asking that question often gets such a different answer from "how you doing" I feel like I'm in somewhat of the same spot as you in the area of praying and spending time with God. It hasn't been my priority and my bible study time has felt dry. The last few days worship music has been cool and helped me just kinda talk with God more...and thank him intentionally.

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  18. love love love this post!!!
    this is one true reason why i always come back for more 'spiritual food' on your blog!!
    x o x o

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  19. I love this. what an inspiration. I'd tell you that I feel like my relationship with God will go to the next level...but I'm holding back. I'm not letting the holy spirit be a voice in my life. I'm not letting it guide me in the little things, which means I rarely let it guide me in the big things!

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  20. I would tell you how scared to death and SO EXCITED I am to be accepted into a graduate school program for my dream career. Then I would tell you how finding a place to live with someone you haven't lived with in the past is very difficult especially when she thinks you can afford more than you actually can. And then I'd sip on the coffee and tell you that I am actually excited to go home and work at the restaurant this summer. Then I'd ask how you have actually been doing as well.

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  21. I would say that I am fine. I haven't opened my bible in a while either. We actually lost our bible in the move, so I might go get a new one this weekend. I have the breaking free book and need to read it. What are some of your favorite Christian books? devotionals?

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  22. Thanks for sharing! This is a great post :) I am loving my Bible study right now. I'm the leader, actually, and I guess if we were having coffee I'd tell you that it's been really challenging but in a good way. I've been learning how to set aside time to do my study and prayer, and we've been using these prayer sheets, which have been new and interesting.

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  23. I just want to come over for coffee and hug you! Love what you've put out there. I've been struggling with trying to stay motivated with life, prepping for my senior year at college, wondering when we will settle down and talk about an engagement. There are days where I feel like I'm doing great, and others I want to crawl in bed and never come out.

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  24. Oh, I loved this. This just perfect. Powerful.

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  25. I love that God pursues us even when we're too 'busy' for Him. I definitely fell behind on my Lent reading this week, but I caught back up today and feel great! Thanks for sharing another great (and honest) post :-)

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