Tuesday, September 17, 2013
When Peace Elludes You
This morning I opened my devotional while I was trying to motivate myself to start the day, and once again sat there not only convicted, but also in awe of our Heavenly Father who knows exactly what I struggle with, what I am afraid of, and what I need to hear. Even when I turn away from Him, and don't sit at His feet like he so longs for me to, when I don't talk to him about what is going on in my heart, he still knows, he still cares, and he still is the one who can give me the power to overcome.
Yesterday I was trapped in the too-familiar cycle of excessive planning, an attempt to control, to make sure everything on October 5th goes smoothly. I was stressed, I was anxious, and frustrated by my mile-long to-do list.
After prayerfully asking God to help me let go of my Type-A tendencies, my fear of forgetting something, of things not going smoothly, I felt a sense of peace that has been absent the past few days. That doesn't mean that everything is done, and that I am 100% ready for the wedding, but I know there is only so much I can do in a day. That the errands and the appointments and meetings aren't meant to cause me so much stress, they are things I get to do in order to prepare for the happiest day of our lives. Little by little, things will get done. We will get married. And then the real fun begins. :)