Yesterday marked 30 days before our wedding. 30 days before I say “I Do” in front of God, our family, and our friends to marrying the man I know without a doubt God hand selected for me. This week I have spent a lot of time finalizing plans with my vendors, and working on the schedule for the days leading up to and the day of the wedding.
Leaving a coffee shop downtown after a meeting with an event coordinator, I felt so anxious about everything falling into place. I wallowed in my nerves, my stress, letting them all feed off one another as my anxiety rose. I’ve realized a couple of things though.
I’ve spent more of this time stressed out over our wedding than I have preparing my heart for marriage. I’ve let myself get worked up and frustrated over things that honestly will not matter on our wedding day. I’ve made myself so anxious over plans going the way I want that I carry that anxiety into the rest of my life: my relationship with Ronnie, my job, my friendships.
The rest of this sweet season is going to be different. My time is going to be spent praying for our marriage, getting to know my sweet fiancé even more, studying God’s word for insight on marriage, and seeking wisdom from other married couples we know and love. I plan to focus my time and thoughts on being intentional about drawing nearer to my fiancé, and nearer to God. I am SO blessed to have found my partner in life, my best friend, and I can't wait to marry him on October 5, 2013.