Friday, June 7, 2013

He is Enough

Ladies, my heart is so full of anticipation, of excitement, of thankfulness, and wonder. The Lord has been doing some work in my heart, and showing me that His plan is so much greater than what I could plan for myself. I've been struggling with surrendering something to Him for weeks, maybe months now. I cling so tightly to control, to a plan, to my will that I lose sight of Him. I have been so faithless, I fear my future, I doubt God's provision, I confuse my discontent with His silence.

I struggle against the blessing he sends me, but He meets me where I am, in my darkest moments. He gently nudges me and quiets my anxious heart with his grace and mercy. He pours his love onto me, even when I am so caught up in my selfish ways I forget to notice the little every day blessings and the wonder of the way he works in my life.

I have finally reached that point of surrender when I can say to Him "Not my will Lord, but yours." I sat in my car this evening crying tears of mixed emotions. Repentance for my lack of trust. Thankfulness for the ways He has showered his grace upon me anyway. Joy for the plans He has for my life that He is revealing to me little by little. With every step of faith I take trusting Him, he reminds me His intentions are good, His plans are perfect, His timing is always right. I cried tears of anxiousness, I cried tears for the memories I've made, for the season of my life that I just know is coming to an end, and tears of pure excitement for the season that I know is right around the corner.

In this season of change, I will fix my eyes on Him. I will find my value, my security, my happiness, my comfort, my peace in the name of Jesus alone. Girls, its so easy to look to worldly things for our value and happiness. Its easy to get caught up in the trap of "When xyz happens, I will be happy/content/secure." But our hearts will never be truly satisfied by things of this world. God has blessed me with a man I love, a job that pays my bills and leaves me a little for fun, girlfriends that make me laugh. God doesn't want me to find my value  and worth in them, in things, in my job or in money. That longing for more that I may feel at times should point me to the cross, to the one who displayed His love for me and longs to fulfill the desires of my heart. . Fight against the lie that our value comes from anything BUT Jesus.



"We are his portion and He is our prize. Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes. If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking." 




7 comments:

  1. You have no idea how much I needed to read a post like this. I've been working hard towards something and unfortunately the outcome was not as planned. It broke my heart that something I worked so hard for and became so passionate about did not turn out as planned. I've been struggling with accepting it and understanding that He in fact has a bigger plan for me. It's difficult but with time I am sure that I will see what He has planned for me.

    Thank you so much for posting this.

    Jeremiah 29:11 Always <3


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  2. you rock girl! I had a VERY similar experience about a few weeks ago with God. Things weren't going my way and I just laid down on my couch and cried and cried, and realized that I had been trying to control things my way WAY too long. Thankfully the Lord is forgiving, and your right He has such a beautiful plan for our lives that we could NEVER come up with ourselves. I loved reading this so much, I am so encouraged by your honesty! your wonderful!
    xo Jess

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  3. Your post describes exactly how I have been feeling lately and so I just wanted to pop a little comment saying thank you! Thank you for such an honest post and for reminding me that His plans are indeed perfect and He is in control of everything, we only need to take that little leap of faith and let go.

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  4. Truth. You already know I relate here haha

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  5. This is amazing!! I have felt the same way before many times, and I can relate with all the tears. Also, I had really bad arthiritis for a long time. Just in the past few years I have healed from the arthritis by changing my diet! I hope you have a great weekend girl! Love Katie

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  6. this was written for me too! I find myself so consumed in what I need...

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  7. What a wonderful post. What an awesome God we serve! I found your blog through Fawn Over Baby and I'm so glad I did! Can't wait to read more! :)

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