Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Anxiousness

I've spent a lot of my life worrying. I've worried about my grades in school, jobs and interviews, finances, about disagreements between friends and where my relationship is headed. I've worried about calories, about not having the perfect body and my eating habits. I've worried about appearances and what others think about me. I've wasted so many hours worrying.

Worrying doesn't accomplish anything, but its what I do. I have a really anxious personality, so name something, and I've probably worried about it. I am worrying about plenty right this second that when I really think about it, God already has it under control. He doesn't need my help.


When you really think about it, isn't worry just a lack of belief? A lack of trust in the goodness of God? A way to try and control our lives ourself? God says that his ways are higher than ours, our thoughts are NOT his thoughts. That is comforting to me, because my thoughts are full of "what ifs" and worst case scenarios.

"And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?" -Matthew 6:30

I remember distinctly a time when I was sick with worry. My work had just told me that the following month I would be moving from day shift to swing shift, which is 4:00 PM-12:00 AM. If I had to pick the one out of the four shifts I would NEVER in my life want to to, it would be swing shift. I didn't want to miss meeting my girlfriends for dinner, I didn't want to pass up my shopping trips with my mom after work, I didn't want to never get to cook dinner and watch a movie together snuggled on the couch with my boyfriend.

I was so upset that all I could do was worry, stress, and think about how terrible it was going to be. I prayed to God that he change my situation somehow. I actually prayed for a new job, but I think God wanted me to stay at the company I am at, because a couple weeks before the switch, we had a team meeting and my bosses told us we were switching up the shifts, and I would be working 10-6. I couldn't have been happier. God came through for me in a huge way that day. He cares about the smallest details of our lives.

Since that day, I have moved to a even better schedule, and am about to move to another position soon here that is really blessing me schedule wise and financially.

What I am trying to say is I wasted so much time worrying and being stressed out, instead of just trusting God things out according to HIS plan. His will for us is better than what we have planned for ourselves, His timing is perfect.  Even in the difficult times, when it seems like God is silent or not listening to our prayers, we can put our trust in the Lord.

That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life-whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn't life more than food, and your body more than clothing?-Matthew 6:25

This doesn't mean that its easy to just turn off that instinct to worry, that we won't stress or be anxious about something in life. But for me, it means that when I catch myself drowning in worry and anxiety, I fix my eyes on Jesus. I tell Him "Lord, I trust you." Over and over until I find myself releasing whatever is stressing me out into His hands.

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you" 1 Peter 5:7

5 comments:

  1. amen to all of this girl!! I have spent so much wasted time worrying about all of the SAME things!! I didn't think God was going to provide a place for me to live, and the only options He seemed to be providing were literally freaking me out. I kept praying, and at the last minute, He brought me the perfect roommate situation! It is crazy how good He is and how He cares about the little details of our lives! love this post <3

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  2. What a wonderful reminder...I am a worrier by nature, and you're right, it's just a lack of belief. I need to hear that, and be encouraged to trust - so thank you!

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  3. Sister,
    I am right there with ya! It is so in my nature to worry and to be anxious! So thankful for the encouragement here and it's so awesome to see your heart running to the Word..that reminds me to run straight there!!

    As daughters of the King we have no reason not to be peaceful, confident, and full of strength in Christ!!!

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  4. hi brittany,
    i just discovered your blog recently and have been following you on twitter for awhile but still have not got a moment til now to read through your posts. i am so glad you wrote this because i can't even say how much i relate. i have been incredibly anxious all my life. it has held me back from being me and doing a lot of things in my life. i am worried, stressed and anxious all the time and currenly i am going through a round of depression. it has made things really hard and i find myself slacking off on devotions, prayer, any time with God. i know that i need that time and that i need to trust him but sometimes i fail at that so badly. thank you for this reminder and this post. i appreciate it so much.

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  5. i totally struggle with worry. even right now. its just the worst and sometimes even when i pray it still happens. but things could be worse i guess.

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