Monday, May 20, 2013

Life is Hard, but God is Beautiful

Something I am currently struggling with?

Ask me this on the wrong day, and my list of things I am NOT struggling with will be much shorter. Ask me this on a day that I am drowning in to-dos at work, my joints are aching, and my RA fatigue is hindering more than just my energy level. One simple truth that I know to be true: Life is hard, but God is beautiful.

Life is hard, isn't it? In the midst of this broken world, we face the consequences of sin and destruction everywhere we turn. The Boston bombings, the tornados in Oklahoma, abortion and babies going to heaven too soon, sex trafficking and just plain selfishness of ourselves and those around us. Life is hard. It is ugly, and it can be messy. But God is good in spite of all of this, He can bring beauty from the scariest, darkest place.

I am struggling currently with how to do it all. Seriously, someone share with me how you do it all, fit it all in! I work all day, and sometimes getting dinner on the table seems as impossible as climbing Mt. Everest. How do I succeed at work, and cook myself healthy meals? How do I balance my time in the evenings between working out, doing my school work, serving in youth ministry, keeping my house clean, spending time with my boyfriend, having that much needed girl time, loving my family, carving out me time, and consistently spending time in the word and prayer?

I've shared some of my recent struggles with surrender, with trusting God's plan, with living with a chronic disease, but...the day to day struggles can be hard too.

But the beauty in all of this is I don't have to do it all. I don't have to rely just on my own strength to do this. Do I have an excuse to just eat out every night because I am too tired? No. I need to plan ahead, be prepared with meal plans and groceries so after work, I don't have to do the hard work of thinking what to cook, and then making sure I have the right groceries.

Does it mean I can slack on school because I just need some "me time?" No! School is a priority in my life, but I can make it easier on myself by looking at my assignments and workload, and scheduling time for studying each week. These things are important to me, doing well in school, eating right, exercising, etc is important for my mental health.

I am still trying to find the balance, learning what it looks like to "do it all" and what it looks like to take a break. Learning how to prioritize, and manage my time better. Learning what things can wait til tomorrow, and what I just need to make time for a little each day in order to avoid being overwhelmed by it all at once. Like I was yesterday when I was sick with the flu and realized I had 3 assignments due that night!

Asking for help, combining some have to do things with friends or my boyfriend, and asking God for him to send his strength are all ways I am overcoming this "do it all" mentality. I am still figuring this out, and I suppose its something that will always be somewhat of a challenge for me, no matter what season I am at in life. I know in my heart I am more than capable of being a career woman, working towards my masters, serving in ministry, loving my boyfriend, friends and family, and taking care of myself. God has called me to these things in this season, and I know He has equipped me as well.

Do you have any advice for trying to do it all?

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,  since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Colossians 3:23-24


  1. Love this!! I would like an answer to your question from those ladies who can do it all; however, I am not one of them. Not by a long shot! Prayers and hugs to you! So thankful we serve a God that doesn't require us to have it all together all the time and who has the strength to meet our every need.

    I once read something powerful that spoke to me...kinda said something along these lines:

    Sometimes the holiest thing you can do is just to rest and relax.

  2. Literally just plan every moment of your day. As for the eating healthy, I tell myself it is a part of my identity that I need to maintain. To eat poorly or eat out is nice every now and then but it is damaging to my self-concept of being a healthy person if I let it get out of control, even if I am tired (I sucked at this big time today haha). Hopefully these thoughts help you a little!

  3. I have been feeling the exact same way. Planning helps, but constantly reminding myself that He is Sovereign over all of it and when I have time to relax - truly relaxing seem to make the biggest difference.

    Just stumbled across your blog! love it.