|After my last half marathon- July 2012|
On Saturday morning, I went out for a run, but I only ran .3 miles before I took a walk break. I continued the walk/run pattern for about 25 minutes, and today, I just needed to get out of my head, so I laced up my shoes and turned on some worship music, and off I went.
Around the time I heard the lyrics "Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power" I looked at my phone and realized I had just ran a mile. I started crying because I remember the fear and hopelessness I felt when I first got sick and thought I may never run again. I remember almost throwing away a box of running clothes because I was in so much pain, the idea of running seemed as crazy as expecting pigs to fly. I remember crying outside my apartment because my hands hurt so bad I couldn't turn my doorknob.
Our God IS the Healer. He is so good and gracious, even when I run from Him and His love, He is with me. Even when I don't feel worthy of Him, he wants me. When I am faithless, full of fear and doubt, He is faithful.
At the beginning of the year, I set some goals.
One of them was to manage my RA without steroids. CHECK!
Another of them was to run a half marathon. Just three weeks ago, I almost deleted this off my 2013 dreams and plans Note on my Mac. But after today-I think that this is a real possibility. I am going to shoot for the moon, dream big, and work hard.
Thankful for a God who meets us where we are, but never leaves us where He found us.